finally created my new blog..it is called title-less coz i have not thought of a title for it yet..lolx..anyway..most likely it will stay that way coz i won't bother to think out of a nice one..as for layout, when i'm free then i will do something about it..so please bear with it..lolx..the old blog will be left there..but it will only be used to keep memories...
having a rough time this year..not a normal kind of rough but a sandpaper kind of rough..lolx..things haven't been going right ever since i finished year 2..i cannot say that my attachment wasn't fun..it was just tough..and i really regret getting mad with Dr Arvind coz i recently realised that him scolding me so badly was that he was just protecting me..i deserved to get the scolding coz i didn't heed his reminders..oh well..people don't seem to cherish what they have now and rather thing of something else..when i was there, i badly wanted to come back..but now when i am back, i am starting to miss my home in the States..oh well..i promise i will visit them again..once i am freed of all my commitments..whether is it national or educational...
i kinda regret telling my parents i wanna study a degree in IT instead..i wanna do microbio..it sounds boring but i actually like it alot..it is amazing what you can get a bacteria to do for mankind...its not like i am not trying hard enough but you really do need a break after all that hard work..and i am playing like only a couple of hours a week which is a far cry from the past..i am trying my best to balance both fyp and studies but i seriously can't..i am not a genius so i have to work hard..but the problem is i don't have much time to spend on studying..the sourdough project is really taking a lot of time away from eugene and my studies..i can look at my psct test paper questions and i cannot remember the answers at all..i was like "wow..i didn't know i knew that much"..lolx...other modules also got so much presentations and reports to do..i am now seriously sick of it..presentations almost every week of my past few weeks..reports deadline due all one week after another..i really don't know how i survived for so long...
they shouldn't call this the final year..they should change it to the hell year..coz one gotta show that he/she can at least handle 1 year of hell before earning the diploma..lolx..i found solace in inflicting pain on myself..i am not slashing myself la..its training myself up..body feels sore feel so shiok..better than feeling bogged down by stress from the heavy workload from school..lolx..somehow pain seems to tell me that comparing stress to pain, i rather have the stress..lolx..so i need pain to constantly remind myself to stay focused...
napfa napfa..too much last minute work..i seriously hope i won't need to re-take it again or waste my time in ptp and ns...i just wanna come out alive..whether is it as a normal soldier, specialist or officer..of course being an officer would be better ;)
new year brings new problems..but new year also brings new happiness, new stuff that one have not experienced before..lolx..so contradicting...
time passes so quickly..i am gonna be 20 in less than 7 months time..i am gonna be an adult soon..but i feel that i am not ready for the responsibilities of an adult yet..i am not ready to become an adult yet!!!
seems like i have crapped alot..lolx..coz i am kinda sleepy right now thanks to the rain that has lasted for 1 whole day and from staying up late to complete work...
hope that things will have a good ending..and fast too...