hmmm..i am taking things too easily already..why am i not worried about my future? i seriously need to think over what i wanna do in the future..and its between IT and life science..somehow, i have a fear of making mistakes over such important stuff which is why i am so indecisive..i do not want anymore regrets again...
its true that when i applied for Biomed, i was only thinking about having fun and bringing the dough in as there is alot of potential..but i lost interest in it and now forced to regret that silly mistake..but what if it happens again if i apply for something else? will i be able to slog through it like what i'm doing now for NS? will i have enough motivation and self-discipline to study harder now? etc etc..lots and lots of questions to be answered...
i am blogging now even though it is 4.00am and i gotta wake up at 7am tomorrow for NDP rehearsals so as to remind myself of what i need to do...
on the working part, new operator trainees coming in next week..do i wanna be the good guy or the bad guy? building friendships are important but letting the guys climb all over my head is not what i want..darn...
i am wasting too much time thinking on some stuff..so i just wanna chill now and just take things slowly, one step at a time..there is no need to rush and ended up screwing up real bad...